dear you ,

i see you almost everyday. i think i know you. i see wat u do, how you speak, wat you talk about, who you talk to, and alot of other stuffs. And no, im no stalker, its only that you always do catches my attention. However, despite wat i feel about you, i always do not have the guts to walk towards you and juz speak my mind to have you by my side. You would always be in my sight but would not be in my arms. I have always wanted to see a smile on you face and thats why i always tell myself that its okay that you are not in my arms as long as you are happily out there, which is a pathetic lie i tell myself to comfort myself as it is so tough, so hard to do that to myself. Having someone out there that i wanna spend time, experience, laughter, tears with but couldnt for some circumstances, it reli crushes me. It is as if you see your house on fire but theres nothing you can do about it except standing in a distance and look at it slowly turn into dust right before you eyes, sometimes, even worse. Yes! it is absolutely that feeling, - H-E-L-P-L-E-S-S. I see you having fun with almost everybody that you meet, but the other person might never be me. Then, as if it wasnt bad enough, for some reason, i even lost you! You were out of my sight completely so suddenly, there wasnt any warning indicating your departure, and you just left, poof ! and there you are NOT, not anywhere in my sighting range. You have gone completely MIA for quite some time. Until, until i duno wat i did, and you reappeared slowly in my sighting range. The image of you turns from blur to focused slowly over some time, and i finally got you back, crystal clear and focused on. However, after the refocusing, you looked so different. You were not quite urself again, although only i sensed it in my own way and not the people around you. and since then , i became afraid. i was afraid of losing you in my sight so suddenly again, i was afraid you would leave without any warning again, so i did not dare to focus on so clearly anymore. i made a small gap, a gap for me to fall into for space incase it reli happens. but i reli do wan you focused in my sight, i even wan more than tat, i wanna be the person you smile with, the person you smile for, the person there for you.

because, i love you.

yours sincerely,

with love,

10:57 PM
will you? ;